5/24/20

I got my new vest and new headphones this week. Ran with the new headphones on Friday, and was pretty happy overall. Jabra headphones don’t mess around when it comes to bass. That Friday run was a half hour after work thing, just relaxing and cruising. Today I ran 15 at 11:00 minutes a mile with the new vest. I’m very happy with the choice I made. No more bruised ribs. Just have to get used to pocket placement but no big deal.

A theme at work for me this week was just to stop caring. Not about the quality of work I do, but about the little, annoying, extraneous things that I can make too much of. It’s like I want to have a fistfight with time — the concept, or construct, or very real thing which rules many (most) people’s lives including mine — over not being home earlier. I can’t care about it when I’m at work because it makes me super anxious, like wound up tight, and it’s another challenge in itself to get unwound. So maybe not such a little extraneous thing, but annoying to be sure. And things plural I said. I love my job because of the people I get to talk to. That’s one reason. But sometimes my interactions while working are very difficult to process. I take it to heart when someone displays even the slightest amount of negativity towards me and/or the quality of my work. That Abraham Lincoln quote though, especially with over 600 people to please. What running blog? This is about work today.

But really, the idea of just letting go is extremely helpful across everything in my life. During my run today, there was a point where I kept telling myself I had to finish under 11 minute pace. Kind of an arbitrary thing, especially because it’s not a training run, I have no specific training goal, and I’m not really training. My goal right now is simple fun. I got over it and relaxed, and the rest of the run was more enjoyable. Just listening to bass-heavy music not intended to be bass-heavy but made so by headphones, and not getting bruises on my tender little ribs. And I finished under 11 minutes.

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